I’ve suffered from low self-esteem for since I was at least 14, something which manifested itself first in the form of anorexia followed by alcoholic binges, depression and panic attacks. Over ten years later I still have a curious relationship with food and often feel that I cannot go on any more; due to issues in the past, I have made a personal decision to avoid antidepressants however at times I do wish I could just take a pill that would block out any feeling at all.
Luckily I have had (and still have) a great deal of support from my family – my mother – and my friends. I have made it through the other side of the darkest days. This doesn’t mean I don’t still have difficult days and there are still times when I cannot go outside without shaking with fear, but I now know how to deal with these things enough to get through the day.
I would like to believe that a time will come when societal pressures are lessened – when young people aren’t faced with the over manipulated figures of the ‘desirable’ on a daily basis. When people can be their natural shape and not feel the need to starve themselves to be skinny. We do not need to change ourselves to be beautiful, but we do need society to change to accept that beautiful comes in all shapes and sizes. I want to share my experiences in the hope that they will help others through difficult times. It is important to know that you are not alone.
My hope is that these t-shirts will remind whoever is wearing them that they are awesome.
I am one of the minds behind the self-esTEEM project.